"The Confused Buda" an Introduction
Hello, my name is Joshua Buda. I am 22 years old, and I am incredibly confused. Now, before I get into anything, I feel the need to preface the following with a few things for you to keep in mind as you read.
I guess I’ll start with a bit about myself, because if for whatever reason you are reading this and you don't know me this might be a bit strange. My entire life I have been in a perpetual state of confusion. The idea of just accepting things as they are, and not looking deeper doesn't exist in my world. I have always been someone who constantly asks why, especially in relation to this thing called life and the human experience.
One of my earliest memories I have is from my time back in Sunday school when I was 4. Obviously, now I have the capacity to add more depth to the thoughts I was having as a toddler, but I remember being at the church, surrounded by all of these people who all believed in this stuff written in a book by people they didn't know, worshipping a god that neither I nor they could see. I remember that I always felt nervous and anxious while I was there, and one day I just had the thought of "I don't know if this God guy exists". Which was a scary thought to have growing up in a religious family in a small town where all of my friends at that stage were people I had been introduced to through church.
I have never felt like I truly fit in with any group of people. The only place I really feel at home in this crazy world is in my own mind. I was the kid growing up that when one of my friends would tell a story, they would be listing who was there, and they'd ask, "were you there?". I was, but more often than not I found myself in my head, taking a step back, disappearing from the flow of the group, and observing whatever was going on. At the time, I didn't understand what I was doing. I just thought that I was a loser, and that everyone else was just better at living life than I was. As the years have gone on, I have come to realize that there is a great deal of strength and power that lives inside not just myself but in all of us. I feel like that strength becomes accessible when we aren't afraid to explore our minds. Our brains are truly the most powerful tools that we have at our disposal. I hope that in this blog, or whatever it is, you will be able to see how my brain works, and you will be able to understand who I am as a person at this current moment in time.
This blog isn't about my brain as much as it is about the current state of affairs that we find ourselves in with my brain being the lens through which it is examined. These will include, politics, social issues, and the human condition, and with a veil of comedy draped over it. I will be making a lot of oversimplifications. Lastly, I do not have some crazy agenda that I am trying to push. If I have any true goal, it is to empower you think, and more importantly, to think for yourself. Explore the ideas I present. Do your own research on these topics and come to your own conclusions.
Well done to you if you have made it to the end of my first post. If you couldn’t tell already, I am not trained in any sort of way to be a writer or a journalist. Hopefully, for your sake, my skills will improve.
Thank you